so even while i feel like i have taken a pause from creating art specifically to sell – which is what i’ve done most of my life with the things i’ve made – in favor of education, experimentation and exploration, i need to be thinking about refocusing my art business and ways to use my lifetime of creative output and maybe my writing skills to earn some passive or low-effort income. my art biz hasn’t really made much money in the last few years and since i do claim it as a business on my taxes (because of the years when i was more successful and made more money), i need to show some profit or i’m at risk of them considering it a hobby, in which case i lose the ability to write off expenses. so diversifying income streams needs to be a focus once again. i used to be much better about this, with all my various designs on print on demand websites offering so many different products. but i haven’t updated any of them in quite a while and a lot of my listings are out of date or broken. i’m gonna make some effort to update these sites and maybe consolidate in one place if possible. stay tuned.
i’m also rethinking how i use this website. i’ve always just thought of it as a vanity site, a space to talk about my art and my thoughts about my creativity. but maybe i could make it more useful, discussing process and tools and more of the nuts and bolts about what i do and how, even as i am still exploring and experimenting. and in so doing, perhaps it would make it more appealing to more readers. (currently hardly anyone reads this blog outside of my friend circle but i’d like to work on getting a bit more of a readership, which also means i need to step up my social media game as pertains to my art posts, to drive folks here.) even if no one else reads it, doing this will make it much more interesting for me to write and will perhaps help me be more organized and think of my art practice as a business.
as part of this, i am thinking about ways to monetize. i hate that word. and i hate that capitalism is necessary but i gotta feed myself and my cat and pay the rent somehow. plus art supplies ain’t cheap! so i have to think outside of the box, beyond just selling my actual creations, to other ways i can make money as an artist and a writer about art.
so i’ve decided to give amazon affiliates another go. (yes, i hate amazon and i don’t even subscribe to prime but i also still use it occasionally and i know most people do too.) i signed up for amazon affiliates once before, back in 2016 when i started my patreon thinking i’d be writing a lot about stuff i could link to, but in the end, i really didn’t. so my account was inactive and eventually deactivated. i just signed up for it again and thought, well maybe i can start doing a series of shorter blog posts about the tools of the trade – paint, brushes, canvases, and other tools – that i use in my painting practice, most of which can be found on amazon of course. i’ve had a lot of trial and error over the years and i have learned a thing or two. maybe some of that info would be helpful to others, and hey, if they buy something using the links to those things on amazon, i’ll get a tiny kickback. but even if they don’t, maybe it will cause folks to want to read my art blog more and help me shape a direction i want this blog to go in beyond just being a vanity site.
whatcha think? i’m also thinking about doing some posts about art podcasts i’m listening to, art books i’m reading/have read, maybe a run down of all the online art teachers i’ve been taking classes from. if nothing else all this will better explain where i am in my head about my art and art in general. again, maybe all this is only interesting to my friends and extended social circle who have supported my artwork over the years, but i feel like i have to give it a go.
i have my thinking cap on about all this. but i wanted to preface whatever i end up doing by being transparent about the fact that most product links in future posts will be affiliate links so if you happen upon my blog posts and are interested in whatever i’m writing about and you want to support me, use my links to make your orders! thanks y’all.
oh, and also, there’s a shiny new paypal “donate” button up at the top of the sidebar menu. i keep going back and forth about whether to do patreon again, but in the meantime, if anyone feels moved at any time to donate to my ongoing art supply and/or education fund, it’s always appreciated. or if you feel like you’re getting anything out of reading whatever i’m writing, $ tips are always nice. 😍
well, after not really sleeping all weekend and having serious anticipation anxiety, waiting to hear if i got one of the scholarships for the CVP class i mentioned in the previous post… i just got the email that told me i did NOT get in. “overwhelming amount of scholarship applications” blah blah blah. i find it so hard to believe considering how hard it is to even find out that there IS a scholarship for this program. it’s not listed anywhere on their website and they never mention it. i only found out because someone said something about it in the chat during a live call – and even then the official response was just “email us.” but at the same time, it’s no wonder they have a kajillion scholarship applicants because the course is really quite expensive, putting it out of the reach of most working class and/or low income folks. i guess it is geared to those who do have the money for it, as they are a business with a lot of staff and expenses to pay in order to keep the whole a2l empire going. i get it. nick and the whole team are great and deserve to make a good living doing what they do, inspiring artists to overcome their fears and create. i’m just sad to not be joining in the 2023 cohort. it sucks being poor.
i hope the other artists i’ve made facebook friends with who applied got in. many of them are on disability or are retired and living on a fixed income. i’m not, so i get it. but the timing is definitely not right for me to go $2.5K in debt right now so oh well. maybe i’ll try again next year.
it does however i guess free me up from what i was already thinking was going to be an insanely busy spring. not that i’m going to stop painting – i won’t, in fact i’m thinking i’ll go back over the spark videos again and see if i learn anything new. but i do have some busy work weekends of petsitting coming up and i’m trying to scheme my way for a weekend trip in april and festival season is almost upon us. spring in new orleans is a very busy time of year. so i guess i won’t have to forego all of that, as i’d previously thought if i were to be in CVP.
maybe the universe has other plans for me.
i know it’s ok to be disappointed. this too shall pass. back to the proverbial drawing board… or sketchbook.
now that mardi gras has passed, it’s back to business as usual, which for me has been all about my art. (you can see more pics of my mardi gras adventures on my personal instagram, or if you follow me on facebook.) the chaos and whirlwind that is carnival sort of caused me to pause on my actual painting, save for some sketchbook playtime, in favor of costume prep. but i was able to continue to follow along with the live calls on the free art2life workshop in the lead up to the beginning of CVP. (if you don’t know what i’m talking about please go back and read the last post.)
so, i made a decision about CVP. as much as i really want to take it, i could not put myself that much in debt given my current financial status. it just wouldn’t be prudent and would stretch me really thin on a month to month basis in terms of covering my actual expenses, even on a 12 month payment plan. but i discovered a few days ago that they do have a scholarship program for those in financial need, so i applied. i don’t know if they will consider me to be in enough need to give me a scholarship or not, but i really do hope so. i get that there are probably plenty of others with greater financial need than me who are more deserving (folks on disability, or seniors on a fixed income, etc.) but i’ve pretty much been low income my whole life and right now i’m lower than i have been in a long time. i have no way of knowing how many folks they give scholarships to each session, or how many apply, so i don’t know my odds. but i had to go for it.
so it’s in the hands of the universe now. i turned in my application on sunday. (yes, in the midst of total carnival chaos!) the deadline was today at noon. CVP starts with a welcome call tomorrow but they don’t let you know if you got the scholarship until monday, so even if i do get in i will be playing a bit of catch-up. but that’s ok. i will be so elated if they do allow me in. (i didn’t ask for a full scholarship; i offered to pay 25% which is about all i think i can reasonable pay off over the next year. though if my finances change, i’m happy to kick in more.)
so wish me luck or if you are so inclined, visualize me getting in so i can continue this deep dive i’ve started into my creative expression and all the things that have blocked me over the years from truly succeeding as the artist i’ve always known i am. as i’ve mentioned before, last year started this new phase for me, with the (wo)manifesting of the extra rooms in my house which afforded me a studio space in my home. (this is something i never thought would ever happen and i willed it into existence last year!)
and then i took the art2life breadcrumbs challenge in the late summer, which was a free workshop that introduced me to how nick wilton and art2life approach teaching art. i immediately resonated with what he was saying, how he taught, and was convinced to take the paid Spark class in the fall. i feel like Spark really gave me some a-ha moments and started breaking down all the nonsense i’ve been telling myself my whole life about art and my abilities. i feel like i discovered some threads… that i really want to keep going with, pull harder on, dive deeper on. which is why i did the most recent free workshop and want to continue with CVP. i feel like i have momentum. and that now is the time. i fear if i don’t i’m going to have a hard time on my own keeping it going. like, i’ve been introduced to the principles that art2life teaches but now i need to really integrate them into how i paint. the structure of the classes, the recordings, the lessons, really help me.
anyways. i am accepting all woo and good wishes for best outcomes. and thank you. especially to all of you who have supported me over the years in my art journey, by listening to me talk endlessly about this stuff, or who’ve read my blogs about it, who’ve bought my art and craft, supported my patreon when i had it, or who’ve just generally encouraged me when i haven’t felt confident about what i was doing. i feel like i’m finally on the verge of figuring it out, of gaining that confidence i’ve lacked, so i can finally have a self-sustaining art practice that is meaningful to me and hopefully others.
for now, it’s back to the dogs and cats and to clean up this MESS of a house and studio post mardi gras costume making and general carnival life for the past few weeks. i’ll post again when i’m notified about the scholarship.
i’m not really one for new year’s resolutions, but i did burn some affirmations and promises to myself in the new year’s eve fire while the neighborhood fireworks were exploding overhead.
one thing i’ve been working on that i’m committing to even harder in 2023 is to make making art a habit. a daily habit. otherwise called an art practice. the art2lifespark program helped me get into a good groove through the fall, but my november sickness and then december holiday madness kinda interrupted my consistency. so i’ve recommitted and am using a printed out monthly calendar taped to the studio wall as a helpful visual – every day i spend even 20 minutes in the studio working on something, i can make a big red X for that day. simple and kind of ridiculous but it really helps me.
so far, it looks like this.
i haven’t managed every single day, but i got a good start and was only waylayed by the memorial i helped plan for my recently departed friend and art mentor nita. (you can read more about her via the tribute i posted on my personal blog.) but now i’m back and doubling down on showing up for myself in the studio every day. my pet schedule is slow enough that i really don’t have any excuses right now.
i’ve completed all the exercises and all but 3 of the free pages in my sparkbook (see previousposts to hear more about the spark program i’ve been doing), and have been working on some other canvases and wood panels. i spent some time working on a special pink/orange/white w/silver background “you are loved” canvas with the intention of donating it to the pussyfooters for their blush ball auction. unfortunately, it didn’t really turn out as i’d hoped and i wasn’t able to fix it in time to donate it. it was a good idea but i started on it way too late considering it was a new colorway that i’d never done before and i chose to experiment with using silver paint for the background and paint pens for the stenciled letters instead of spray painting. (it didn’t really work great, so the letters look fat and uneven.) it is more or less done now but i can’t really fix the lettering without starting completely over so i think it’ll just get scrapped. maybe i’ll get it together for next year’s ball. (sorry debra!)
i’ve almost paid off the spark program. to recap, it was a $500 investment that i used paypal credit to pay for so i had 6 months no interest to pay it off. i have til march on the promotional time period but i think i’m down to $75 to pay it off, which is great since i just had to charge $350 on my care credit card for stencil’s recent vet visit, rabies vax, bloodwork, probiotics, and pricey antibiotics. i’m sure i’ll be paying more on that soon, but they also give me a 6 month no interest option for anything over $200, so at least i have time to pay it off.
money is unfortunately on my mind right now because my pet biz is so slow. i lost a few pet clients to death in the fall, and now i’m losing another client due to moving at the end of this week, and yet another client will be moving in a few months. i’ve picked up one 2x/week walking client and have a few pet sits on the books but i could use a few more regular walking gigs to fill in the gaps. all of this is to say, i’m scraping by but barely right now.
which makes me really sad because i really want to sign up for the next art2life program that’s coming up, called CVP (creative visionary program). it’s a much more in-depth course that lasts 12 weeks and you have access to the program for a year. it builds upon the spark program that i’ve just completed and it’s on par with taking a college level class in painting/art-making. well, actually, most who take it say much of what is covered they never learned in art school. it’s a time for honing painting and discernment skills, really finding oneself as an artist. and i feel like i desperately need and want this and that the timing is right for me in my current art practice. but it costs $2300+ for the class and though i do barely have that much credit available right now since i’ve been paying some things down, to max out my credit card feels like a very irresponsible thing to do financially. (paypal credit wouldn’t really help me out cuz 6 months wouldn’t be enough time to make the monthly payments affordable to me.) i haven’t sold any art in a long time and if i take the class, it wouldn’t be a time that i would be making things to sell, just as the past few months have been not about making sellable art but about exploration. i’d like to think taking it will bring me to a place where i can actually recoup the cost in future art sales but again, that seems like pie-in-the-sky thinking and it makes me scared to think of piling on the debt at a time when i can barely pay my bills.
sigh. what to do. i can try to do a sale of all the old work i have sitting around, but at best that will only net me a few hundred bucks. i wish i had any ideas for a new t-shirt design, but since i’ve been in the painting mode, my brain hasn’t really been thinking in design mode. and even if i did, again, it would probably only make me a few hundred bucks. i don’t know how to come up with a few thousand that i don’t also need to just survive.
CVP doesn’t start until february 23rd, and is preceeded by a free 5 day workshop that i’ve already signed up for. the timing is not great though as it’s right at the height of carnival, feb. 13-17. i love a free workshop but basically the whole point of it is to give a preview of what CVP is and to convince you to sign up. art2life has a good marketing game going on, they know how to hook you in. but i’ve also seen so many artists who’ve taken the class give glowing testimonials and produce amazing work. and it just feels like taking classes is an accountability measure that speeds up the progress i can make vs working on my own. i really like nick wilton and his whole woo woo vibe and schpeal – it resonates with me. and i feel like spark really helped plant some seeds and helped me find some threads i want to keep pursuing with my art. (i wish i would have found something like this in my 20s or 30s cuz i’d be so much further along in my art process, but i guess i’m here now for a reason.)
so. i have my thinking cap on and am open to any suggestions on how i can come up with a couple of thousand dollars in the next very busy social mardi gras month. i can’t ask people to donate money to me – not after that giant go fund me that got me through brain surgery. i just can’t. if i had known about art2life then, i would have gotten on board with some of that money at that time. but i didn’t. and i have to believe it’s happening now for a reason, that i am actually finally ready for it now. it feels like a test of my commitment – can i figure out a way to (wo)manifest this money so i can sign up for the class? or will i let this opportunity slip by and have to wait another year to do it? (they only offer cvp once a year at this time.)
much of this will be redundant if you actually read my blog regularly, but for those who don’t, here’s a recap and other observations about my year.
in one of my former art lives, this time of year would be filled with art markets and pop-ups, with every spare moment going to restocking and producing things to sell and working on my displays, fulfilling etsy orders, boxing and shipping at the post office. i look back on those times fondly even though i often felt really stressed and wondering if it was all worth it. some years were more lucrative than others; some markets were more lucrative than others. sometimes i’d load the car, haul all my shit out there, set up the tent and all the stuff, and sit there for 6 hours in every kind of weather that november/december can offer and sell nothing or next to nothing… meaning the day was a net loss after the booth fee. but sometimes business would be brisk and i’d walk away with hundreds of dollars and almost more importantly a refilled ego after dozens of conversations with customers and other artists about my work. most of the time it was somewhere in between these two extremes. all of it made me exhausted with occasional bursts of inspiration, excitement and/or connection. but mostly exhaustion.
i do miss the camaraderie and social outlet of being part of the market scene, but it was always a crap shoot as to whether i would make any money, and at some point, the negative outweighed the positive and i just stopped having the motivation to go through all that. (i also didn’t have a car for many years which made it almost impossible. but really, i was burned out anyways.)
since then, i’ve had a very tenuous relationship with my creativity and output. i’ve continued to make and sell stickers and occasionally t-shirt designs, though i’ve paused printing them myself because it was so labor intensive and costly – print on demand sites give me better returns and less stress. but in the last year or two, i haven’t even made any new designs so those sales have trickled except for the occasional fundraising effort like i did post-hurricane ida.
last fall was a low point for me, after the hurricane. even though i managed to raise over $500 for folks affected by the storm via the sales of my art and shirts, which felt really great, when that push was over i was left kinda empty on what to do next. i was still living in the back end of my apartment, the 500 square foot one bedroom i’d lived in for 11 years. though very affordable, it always made me feel very cramped and limited, as well as isolated from my neighbors and the activity on the block, a point which was really driven home during the storm when i couldn’t see out of my backyard to know what was happening out front or with my car. i was literally trapped inside the house while the storm was happening by my next door neighbor’s large oak tree which stretched over the fence into my yard and was hitting my back porch and my only door throughout the storm. (not that i wanted to go outside, but others could at least see out the front door or go out on the porch to communicate with neighbors when cell phones weren’t working and there was no electricity. i could not.)
that experience made me feel like i just couldn’t live that way any longer. but finding a larger apartment that would be affordable would be really hard, and moving in general was not something i really wanted to do. i loved my neighborhood and neighbors and like feeling rooted in a place. i’d long wanted to convince my landlords to open up the hallway door that separated my apartment from the front two room of this side of the shotgun (which at the time connected to the other side of the house, forming an L or J shape for the other side), but the timing and opportunity had never arisen nor had i ever been in a financial place to absorb the higher rent that would be necessary if given more space. but the universe heard my frustration and wishes and the landlords, on their own without my input, asked the former tenants to move out. their side would need some extensive renovations so it would be a few months before the landlords started looking for a new tenant. i saw my opportunity and grabbed it.
i keep having to relearn the lesson that visualizing what you want really does work. but i put that into action last winter. but first, i got into therapy – online – to help me find my way out of a depression that was really gnawing at me. and thankfully, i got matched with an angel of a therapist who gave me homework to do a vision board of sorts, which sounds hokey but i interpreted it to relate to my apartment situation so i started drawing blueprints of my new much larger apartment, trying to figure out where furniture would get moved, what i’d need to buy, how i’d rearrange rooms, etc. i was able to get into the front two rooms via the handyman, to make measurements and start doing some cleanup after the old tenants moved out, while the landlords were thinking about whether to grant my wish. that blueprint became my vision board and i pondered it daily, trying out different configurations and spending a lot of time online shopping for what i’d need (like a couch and a coffee table, cuz now i’d have a proper living room!). i would go into those front two rooms and energetically make them mine, every day. and eventually it worked. the landlords agreed, we negotiated on the rent and came to a number we could both live with, and the rooms were mine!
it still took a few months before i was able to assume the space, as the handyman was prioritizing the work on the other side so the landlords could get a new tenant. but i started cleaning up, sweeping, wiping down the baseboards and built-in bookcases, cleaning out the window unit ac, etc. eventually i even found some touch up paint in the shed and was able to freshen up the front two rooms so they looked new to me. i did not only the walls but also all the wood trim and mopped the floors with pine cleaner to make it all smell better. i smudged and sprayed essential oil concoctions gifted by friends and then started moving all the furniture in my hallway, which had become a storage space, in anticipation of the doorway opening up.
and then it was finally mine! the doorway was unsealed and i could walk the length of the shotgun house from the back to the front! the universe once again had my back helping me find the perfect $100 ikea sofa and a friend with a truck to help me move it, plus a coffee table and area rug i could live with for cheap. a free recliner from another friend appeared out of nowhere and voila, i had a living room! and that was all the new stuff i had to purchase. i moved most of what used to be in the very back room, my former living room, into the front living room (my giant hand-me-down tv, my record collection, my now ancient stereo and speakers, and my favorite retro orange vinyl swivel chair), and that back room became my studio space with all my art supplies, my 4-color printing press that had been rescued from the hurricane-induced shed collapse, and all my unsold work. and in another nod from the universe, i discovered an 8 foot folding plastic table that had been left behind by former tenants in the laundry shed that was in great shape – that became my work table in my studio. i cleared one wall so i could hang canvases on it to paint, and i was ready to go!
and then… nothing happened. all of that several month visualization and machination which resulted in everything i wanted – i now had a separate room of my own for art making, that had great light and opened to the back yard where my spray painting station, the hose, and my newly rebuilt storage shed was. it seemed ideal. and then… i had no motivation to create. i even had a very slow work schedule thanks to several longtime clients dropping off my schedule (which was a little scary now that i had much higher rent to pay but the universe gave me enough petsitting to help make up for it and i got by). but now i had to start doing the work to really exam my art practice, or lack thereof, and figure out what i wanted to do next creatively, now that i no longer had the excuse of not enough space or even time.
so. that brings us to last late spring/early summer. i had already lost interest in the whole crypto/nft thing which had really sparked me last year and up to this same time period that i was (wo)manifesting my dream apartment. i’m sure many of you thought i was crazy. i stand by the excitement it gave me to see so much creativity and so many artists making money from their digital work, and some of them still are. but i’m just not a digital artist, no matter how hard i tried. i like the tactile nature of paint and ink and paper and canvas and i like the physicality of art making, in all its forms. i like making things with my hands. physical things. drawing on an ipad just didn’t cut it for me. plus the whole crypto market tanked, and though i hadn’t invested very much money in it, it was still sad to see all that optimism and possibility get so obliterated. so that was that. (transparency: i never cashed out because it would have meant a loss, so i’ve just let my crypto sit, waiting to see if things ever pick back up again. but don’t worry, i’ll cash out first chance i get to just recoup what i put in.)
i started poking around online a lot more, mostly on instagram but some on facebook, for art that i liked, to use as inspiration. i just kept coming back to more abstract stuff, which is funny cuz most of my life i have not been very interested in abstract work. but over the past 4-5 years i had started to play with scraping and flinging paint, seeing what i could do, and was fascinated by it… even though i didn’t feel like the results were really great. i mean, i did all those “you are loved,” “breathe,” and “community is everything” pieces with an abstract background and then a more graphic design layed over it, but it wasn’t like the abstract part could stand on its own. and that’s what i wanted to figure out how to do. how to make compelling abstract stuff that didn’t have to use words and graphic elements as a crutch to make it interesting. i wasn’t sure why i was having this desire but all the art i was bookmarking online was this kind of stuff.
somehow i stumbled onto the work of judy woods, a new zealand intuitive abstract artist who also teaches art online. her work was interesting to me and she had a way about her, the way she talked about it, that made it accessible to me and i enjoyed watching her paint. so i signed up for one of her free short online classes, a drawing class, just to see what it was about. a free painting course quickly followed. and that started a journey which i’m still on today. i’m feeling much less creatively stifled and just more curious about what i might discover as i work to establish a real art “practice” that keeps me coming back to the studio if not daily at least many days a week to continue my exploration. (i took both a free drawing class and her free STARTS painting class; she has a longer year-long paid version of the STARTS course as well.)
i didn’t end up signing up for judy’s paid class because it was just way more money than i could justify but doing her free courses (and a fewothers i sampled) somehow led me to find nicholas wilton and his art2life empire. and after doing a bit of one of his free courses (breadcrumbs) and listening to endless hours of his podcast, i was convinced to sign up for one of his paid courses, spark. i am still in the thralls of that one right now, even though the live part of it was only 3 weeks long and ended a while ago… i’m still making my way through the modules of the class and filling my sketchbook (called a “sparkbook” in the course). but something about the way he talks and approaches art gives me more permission to just play and experiment and see what happens, and, as he puts it, find my way as i go. which, honestly, has been the way i’ve lived my life (no plan, trying this and that) so i’m not sure why it’s so hard to do with my art. but it is my lesson to learn. and i’m hoping that this time i’m investing in learning how to play with my art will translate to me relearning how to play in life. cuz one thing i realized in therapy last year was that i’ve become one of those boring middle aged people who has forgotten how to have fun, how to play, how to relate to others in a genuine way, how to be present with my friends and even myself. i fill my time with distractions and watch life passing me by. all of this has made me very unhappy. so i’m trying to use art as a way to rediscover these things, to show me the way, so i can do that in life as well. a sort of self-instructed art therapy.
is it working? i dunno. i’ve only managed to pay down half of the class (i used my paypal credit so i could have 6 months no-financing fees to pay it off, so i have a few more months as it originally cost me $500) and i went almost the entire month of november without really doing much in the studio cuz i was so sick. but i’m feeling better physically (finally) and this past week i’ve been in the studio nearly every day, thanks to a slow schedule/many cancellations. i won’t have as much free time in the next few weeks as work picks up and holiday social obligations increase, but i am trying very hard to establish a routine of spending even just 30 minutes a day in the studio doing something, to keep the juice flowing. thankfully i had a stockpile of paint and other art supplies that i’m now working through, so hopefully i’ll end up with something i can sell sometime soon to restock the paints.
do i think it’s been worth it? absolutely. investing the $$ gives just the right amount of pressure/motivation to keep at it and make it feel worth it. and in the process, hopefully, i’m establishing a new habit, learning some techniques and art theory, as well as some things about myself, my relationship to my art, and what i hope to express with it in the future. i guess i’ll let you know in a few more months when i’ve managed to go through everything and finish up my sparkbook and hopefully make some actual art. but for now, i’m happy that i invested in myself, even if it doesn’t result in immediate financial returns. i think the self-growth will be return enough, and hopefully i will find my way with my art, as i go.
(i will drop right here a quick 1-minute video of the current state of my sparkbook, which is incomplete and most exercises and free pages only have one pass on them. but we were asked to do so in the class, to share in our private facebook group, so i did. so might as well share it here. please do remember though that these are not meant to be finished pieces or really to look like even complete thoughts; they are just meant to be play, experimentation with techniques, and completions of the exercises in the course. so the book won’t win any art awards but is meant to be a reference for me to go back to, to remember what got me excited, what colors i love, what techniques worked for me, etc. that’s why it’s called spark – it’s about discovering “what lights you up,” as nick wilton says. but here ya go anyways.)
so, that’s been my last year. i feel good about where i am, that i have some forward motion, even if i don’t know where it’s heading. i have a vision in my head of me getting it together, pulling all these artistic influences and styles and techniques i’ve dabbled in all my life together finally into something i can call my style. and creating works that feel meaningful to me and that i feel like i want to share with others as an expression. that’s what i’m working on.
my goal for 2023 will be to FINALLY get something together to submit for the louisiana contemporary show at the ogden, which happens every year. it’s been something i’ve wanted to do for like 10 years and i never feel good enough about the work i’m doing or have anything completed in time for the submission window (which is in the spring – the show usually opens in august and runs through december). so maybe this will be my year. i feel like it would be a good jumping off point, to introduce myself as a “real” artist.
i have a lot of work to do between now and the spring to get there but it is possible. i just have to show up, in the studio, and for myself. i guess we’ll see if i pull it off.
i hope everyone has a stress-free and joyous holiday season. maybe i’ll write here more before the end of the year but most likely i won’t. if ya wanna keep up with my art stuff you can follow me on instagram cuz i’m much more likely to post there in short form with photos or videos than i am to make a longer post here.
over the past year or so, i’ve been languishing in the land of frustration while trying to learn more about abstract art techniques and just trying out new things. experimentation is great, but sadly i have a hard time getting out of my own way and unhooking my analytical left brain mind so i don’t overthink everything… which is not really that conducive to abstract painting. so there have been a ton of paintings started and nothing finished; many painted over and started again… and yet, again not finished.
so i decided to look for some structure, some instruction, some inspiration. a teacher. something i could do online, asynchronously as my schedule is erratic and my time for art very inconsistent. but something that would get me back in a habit of creating regularly, hopefully daily, even if it was just little exercises to stretch my creative muscles.
many internet art instructors offer free workshops as samples of their style and content in the hopes of convincing you to sign up for their paid course. so i did a few different free workshops, ranging from a few days to a few weeks. all were good and i’m glad i did them, because it got me moving and painting. but i can’t say the outcomes were all that great. i did seriously consider one of the paid courses – it’s a year long class with oodles of modules and content and every two weeks live calls with the instructor, who i really liked. but i was sort on the fence about liking her actual artwork, and her teaching style, while initially drawing me in, didn’t end up producing many a-ha moments or finished products. it mostly left me frustrated again. and the course was more expensive than i was willing to justify.
but then i stumbled onto art2life, which initially seemed a little like a cult in some ways to me. lol. but i started watching some of instructor nicholas wilton‘s free videos and listening to some of his podcasts, and almost immediately i really resonated with his personal california woo woo vibe. my timing was perfect to take his free online course called breadcrumbs. i signed up and watched some of the live calls but life got in the way and i didn’t even complete but one of the exercises – but it was enough to make me realize i felt at home with him, like he was a good fit for me. plus i really dig his personal artwork. (not that i want to emulate his style but i like where he’s coming from and we share a love of color, texture and paint that just makes me feel like i can learn from him.)
so even though i didn’t finish the breadcrumbs, i took a few days to ponder if paying for his 3 week course called spark might be good for me, and if i could afford it. it’s $500 (or they have a 3 month payment plan that makes it slightly more expensive though stretches the payments out over time). but then i remembered i have paypal credit which offers 6 months interest free if you pay it off, for larger purchases. divided up, that’s $85/month which isn’t bad and totally doable for me. so i bit the bullet.
and after a few days of making sure i had all the right supplies – the only thing i had to purchase was an appropriate sketchbook that had paper thick enough to lay acrylic paint on, which i finally found at david art center in metairie for $25 – i am all ready to start this course today with this afternoon’s welcome call. i tidied up the studio and my sparkbook – that’s what they call the sketchbook for this course – is all labeled and ready to have paint lathered on it, marks made, bits of paper collaged onto, etc. i’m actually excited! frankly, that alone is worth the expenditure of the money… to feel excitement again about making art. and the bonus is that there’s a whole community via facebook around it.
though the course is only 3 weeks long, i’ll have access to all the videos and materials and the fb community for a year, in case my schedule prevents me from keeping up with the live classes. which is entirely possible. but i’m going to really try to participate live cuz i think it enhances the experience.
anyways, that’s what i’m up to. hopefully i’ll feel good enough about what i’m doing in the course to post on instagram about it and show y’all what i’m learning. or maybe i’ll wait til the end. who knows. but for the first time in a while, it’s nice to have something to look forward to.